Hello! gemini san! how's you?! where you? douko ni gemini san! have you seen him..

merged: 11-25-2006 ~ 08:38am
ohayo! i'm so happy to hear from you again, gemini kun! *jumps up and down*.. lol. saaaa.. been a long time ne- otoh, i'm a bit lost for words at the moment, due to some tyrant profs causing much of our unhappy times. otoh, i will write a much worthier post by next week.. oh, and i would love to have your IM username if it's ok..

saa- *shakes head while smiling*.. so till then, ne gemini kun! <3 ki o tsukete kudasai!

merged: 11-29-2006 ~ 07:24pm
GEMINI KUN GEMINI KUN GEMINI KUN!

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I've been locked out of MT... during the upgrade they lost my password and there was no reset until a week ago

Before that I hadn't seen you in a while but I was sure you were busy with projects.

hai! dang - like that poem by Poe :

"Thank Heaven! the crisis-
The danger is past,
And the lingering illness
Is over at last-"

honto ni! we have just passed our thesis and i'm elated beyond words! (yes no more biggie, and eligible for graduation)

however- that was a real jerk of me, not to correspond from time to time though.. ckchan is inadequate with stress.. ...gomenasai- gemini kun!

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OMG... just erased all the text I was typing.... y... I LOVE THIS SONG. Blurry by Puddle of Mud... such GOOD LYRICS!

ctrl z crtl z ctrl z.. gemini kun! ..*grins* yeah that song is purrrdy. <333 ..i like it when the vocalist try to sing the song, you know?

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So much I could say but couldn't put it down and the song says it OTHER... it's so perfect so ima going to use them ^_^ Not all lyrics but just pieces XP So let's see:
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I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
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so many, ne?... i wonder what they are... ^____^ however, i could definitely relate to the lyrics as well.. wai!

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Yep that pretty much sums it up. Me ups and downs but good news is I'm up right now work is better and can be more cheery. So what's left is how have you been doing. Love to hear from you ^_^

oh my- just the same here.. got through some really tough time both personal and academic, but thankfully-.. surviving, and quite in a happy disposition. I'm likely to draw again back here in MT as well. Though i'm not sure, if you will frequent the site as before.. ..other than that, i met a few newly computer grads/game developers overseas, and i draw game characters for em. if business will do good in the future, i might move there. ^^ i guess you have gotten a new job? i hope i could cheer you tho... <33333

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merged: 11-27-2006 ~ 08:41am
My MSN is d4lam@hotmail.com

oo.. i have added you but, i'm shy to msg..- *giggles*.. must sum up some courage, i guess.. lol.

but yeah- see ya in chat.. David? is it?

hi gemini4life

i want to say thanks for faving my wall Exquisite Reverie

im glad that you like my wall so thank you, i really appreciate it

i hope that you have an enjoyable day and take care ^^

Quote by gemini4lifeHey Baka Bat,

Haven't seen you online in a while, just stopping by to ask how are you and how things will be? Our last conversation ended abruptly, and it sounded like you maybe going home, which also means you won't be online as much. Hope to hear from you sometime.

Gemini

Hey there Straw Hat,

How are you? Sorry, actually, I'm already back home. I came back last Tuesday, with all the disadvantages it brings. And before that, I was running everywhere in preparation for the trip to come back. Now, I'm back on my slow connection , and back to hiding to log on. The worst being, I know my mother has a modem for high speed hidden somewhere here (I ordered it for her, coz' she'll need one for her job, and so will I if I can't find a job soon) but I can't even install it, she won't allow me . We're supposed to go buy her a new computer next week, and I have to show her how it works so, maybe... *crosses fingers*.

I had to come back early for an appointment with the dentist and a surgeon... stupid wisdom teeth... I just had 3 removed last Friday (yes, 3, luckily for me, the fourth one was missing lol). It's a small surgery, I know, but it's the first time in my life I go to the hospital, so it made me really nervous, though, my mother was even more nervous/scared than I was lol. It's also the first time I have to take this many pills at once. And I just got myself a new nickname because of my puffy (swollen) cheeks too, thanks to my mom's great sense of observation: Squirrel... or from Iyasis: Scrat (she watched Ice Age way too many times ). Worst part, I won't be able to eat popcorn or chips for two whole weeks This is going to be hard loll. Still, I'm doing okay, and it doesn't hurt nearly as much as I had feared...

So, for now, I'm taking a break. I didn't even start looking for work. I'm just sleeping, reading (I finally got to start reading The Da Vinci Code, it was about time ), watching TV, and maybe I'll find time to draw a little bit. Mom wants me to rest, and she's doing everything in her power to allow me to relax, even though she's tired herself. And she won't let me help her...

Anyways, I hope you're doing good yourself. You should give me news about what's up with you too, though I'll be slow at answering from now on. I'm not sure I'll be able to show up on MSN before a while either... Take good care of yourself, see ya!

Ayamael

P.S. what is this? *looks at post under hers* You're spamming your own GB now? ... Not good LMAO... take care Straw Hat!

merged: 07-14-2006 ~ 01:20pm

Quote by gemini4lifeWow, look at this picture and you know why I tell you you need to keep drawing... this one is great, the shading is really sharp. And the detail for her dress is perfect. The spider is also great too. It's only a tiny spider but it still is very detailed and is the most prominant parts of the picture...

Oh boy... i'm getting delusional reviewing at this hour is a bad thing... but fun too... let's just hope I don't have one of those "intriguing" dreams of mine where I see spiders... baka bats, and Mahiro ^_^;

Well with my last bit of sanity... simpley great job Aya.

*poke* *poke* I'm talking to you on MSN right now, I know... and I'll probably tell you I posted in your gb... stupid merge post But I really needed to thank you (a week late, I know, but better late than never ) for your comment on my latest drawing, especially since you did it when you were delusional XP Thank you, I appreciate it. I love encouraging comments ^^ See ya in a few seconds in the MSN window... you're talking about the weather o_O... What the?!?

Break XP

hi hi, gemini-kun...

i'm afraid this is going to be emotional because this is very late... *chokes*

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oh no *goes over to stop Chisaikame from bowing* You did nothing wrong, I love hearing feedback as much as you do. Though just incase I will say I accept your appoligies even though you did not do anything wrong.

eetou.. hai hai..

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>_< so many appoligies... should be me saying sorry to poor Chisaikame chan. I should have been braver and asked you earlier, but instead waited till very last minute to send you the note about my birthday and the request, hontou gomene

eetou.. this is the most difficult part... i actually made a sketched one a long time ago, but decided to not upload it, and color it instead because it has to be special, but... *silent in utter defeat*... they were giving us so much work... there wasn't adequate time to finish... until now..... (sigh, sob)

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To make it worse I didn't give you anything specific to draw. I really don't know what it is I want, good and bad thing about an imagination is that I've had so many different visions that coming to one solid image is really hard. I've done some google searches for picture for ying yang signs, and some look good (this one was nice http://helene83.europe2blog.fr/fan_de_rock/images/733_asian_dragon_and_ying_yang.jpg ), but the problem is they don't contrast the light and dark very well, and if I want it to represent me then it needs to be something original. See so hard to describe sorry

>.< need to help Chisaikame out. Core of my vision is a serious darker character in one half and a lighter happy character in the other half. I don't browse too many pictures besides MT so haven't seen too many pics to recommend.

see... this is the most difficult part about reading your posts, i'm just utterly embarassed to reread them, especially when i knew i did something terrible.... eetou... gemini-san, i got to read this part again about the 'lighter side' just today! chisaikame, bakana itsumo...

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The last thought is Chisaikame chan it's the thought that counts just your willingness means so much to me... *bows* arigatou gozaimasu You have so many requests, mine can be a long project that can be done whenever we feel that we have found the vision to draw it. So please don't fret, it's not like you. It'll be a fun journey and I'm loving every minute of it ^_^

honto ni gomenasai... i'm out of words... but i would like to return feedbacks on the other two, doujins.. because i'm happy when you seem to like the doujins.... (so very late) happy birthday... next time i will read your notes properly for a change....

merged: 04-23-2006 ~ 06:34pm
hi hi gemini-san!

Quote by gemini4lifeYAY YAY YAY

I saw your gb entry but haven't read it yet saving it so when I have time to read, reading at work is no fun cause I could get pulled away and lose my train of thought. I like multi-tasking but msgs like those are special and give undivided attention to, just like your works of art ^^

saaa... Sho ga nai..

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Well back to your drawing not too many comments cause imagination will run too wild but I remember this show and with what's happening I picture guns a blazing shooting all over the place but with fireworks of court XP in celebration of welcoming back our beloved Chisaikame chan ^_^

hai hai.. i love this particular sequence.. it just blows me away..

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Not sure if this is constructive critiscim or not but even though it's not there I keep seeing bullets flying all over to add to the effects of the picture, like you said you have an original on the way... just the lvl of your work I'm use to even though it's not there I can see bullets everywhere

sou desu! i think it will add more drama to the picture, ne.. but chisai is too afraid to be even slightly creative.. i've not much confidence really with original works, shimasen... i do hope this will be overcome though.

Quote by gemini4life"Fly Away With Me" that's the four words that come to me when I look at this piece of art. That's the feeling you elicit from me when I see her. She will take me away to where she is from a land of piece and kindness... wow wish I really got to go there, but for now my imagination will do, thank you so much Chisaikame chan *bows*

dou itashimashite! i do agree with you there... i paid particular attention to her expression.. for me, that's what i learned from observing classic paintings.. there is just so much 'story' on a person's expression let alone a whole portrait..! i'm glad we have the same way of seeing the picture.. it was made to give a sense of wonderment and fantasy. subrasahii, gemini-kun!

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To the analysis, we're back to shading, but at the same time you've taken thins up a notch again, choosing some extremely challenging elements, putting them all together for display and you pulled it off in Chisaikame fashion... (OMG... I feel like Simon Now... is that a bad thing ... little nervous that you compared me with him especially with his reputation XP)

okashii... <3333 gemini-kun!

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So what are the elements you put together?

1. You chose a very petite girl which makes proportions difficult, but to top that off you have a ballerina gown on her so more of her body is shown and not concealed by clothing which would make it easier to draw.

i don't know.. but i get affected with the littlest things.. if i notice that a certain physique can be different from others i like to observe how they are deemed different.. in this case, i am again.. making a big deal of how a person can look in her youthful years, to the point that i would like to make her look fragile/pure.... saaaaaa.. there i go babbling again.

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2. You choose to have her sitdown in that position with here hands on her knees. You rarely see someone sit down like that so the insight to see and feel what this looks like and put it to paper is outstanding

thank you very much... there was research on stock people sitting though.. i possibly could not have done it from thought...

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3. Finally the wings and the ring of flowers on her head. You can draw these in your sleep and make them as real as any other. And that's the biggest danger if you give them too much life they detach from the core which is your ballerina. However, thanks to your gift of shading you use the transitional shading from her pine to the root of the wings that give you the feeling that the two are indeed one. As for the flowers they aren't usually seen on a ballerina (least not by me <--- not a ballerina expert ) but the feeling works really well for me.

i was actually thinking of a wreathe of 'roses' so tightly pulled together and as though falling off near her bangs... but symmetry and harmony is also key in a drawing so to complement her wings, i ended up with a different design.. besides it being easier for me to draw.. i couldn't really have ample time to think about what to put on her wings, but i tried to imitate nature to the best of my ability... you know- ....there is so much harmony and order in nature. :] about the 'wreathe' effect, i'm not sure about ballerina's sporting it either, demo, gemini-kun.. as we all know, in anime there should be a distinct kawaii-factor.. it was added to make the average viewer and go 'aww shucks'.. and this is my first attempt to it.. i'm very glad you liked it somehow..

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So perfect picture right, nope always have a little constructive criticism to help you grow even more (hehe this is the one thing that I do admire about Simon and don't mind being associated with ^_^) Your strength is your shadowing but because of the level of difficulty of the components of this piece it would challenge even you ability.

hai hai.. domo arigatou.. itsumo!

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The two areas that I found could have been improved where her right ankle, there is some shading there that makes it look like she has a sock or something, I checked the left ankle and know she isn't wearing something like that.

it is the shadow from her dangling hand... sho ga nai...

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The other piece is the shadow on the ground. Just such a complicated position and to imagine what the shadow looks like unless you were there in person you could not draw it, so your version is good, but still something doesn't feel right. Pretty much from where the knees would be and up.

hai hai... i do think it was pretty 'weak' shadow.. not much 'layers' were made (chisai's method is always that of layers, sketch/layer/sketch, then lineart) in which i am usually resorting to..

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Yay finally got to sit down and walkthrough a piece, haven't done that in a while with the busy schedule but as always so much fun. What's left well could you tell me what etoile means cause don't know ...

eetou.. it means 'celebrity'... you know it's like this: people like, stare at her, inquiring why she looks/attired in a different way... answer is because she's the prima ballerina.. something like that...! lol. but the deeper meaning is again that sense of fantasy and that longing for a perfect place.. etc.

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and ehhh... secondly your picture had one big distracting point for me... I spent some time zooming into the top left corner and trying to figure out what was "hidden" in the shadow. But alas could not figure what those words were

saaa.. that's dvorak symphony no. 9 'new world' third movement i think... i thoroughly enjoyed listening to it so i wrote the title down and not forget....

-to your gb entry now...

merged: 04-23-2006 ~ 06:51pm

Quote by gemini4lifeI'm so touched Chisai chan... your gift to me can't be described but only felt. Your gift wasn't late and please don't feel bad at all that you couldn't send it to me till now... you gave me something more then just a birthday present. A birthday present is something you represent for that one special day, but you gave me so much more.

saaa... that made me smile so much my cheeks hurt... gemini-san has a wonderful way with words, hontou ni! ^_^ demo ne, to know that you're happy.. is much much more than better than a thank you- sou desu!

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Looking at this picture even with the "roaring dragon and tiger XP" I feel a warmth of a kind chisai chan spending time putting her feelings into making a gift for her friend... you just didn't give me a gift for one day each time you were able to work on this was a gift of your care and kindness to me... and for that I'm speechless as to how to thank you

it is official: no one can embarass chichan more than gemini-kun..~! i guess i really just have to get used to it.. otoh, it's simply impossible to wipe the grin off my face... dou itashimashite.. gomenasai for the rough edges, though.. it was a last minute decision that i would give a black bg... and chisai loves a hint of imperfection in her works so....

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And what's more is I think I noticed that since we last chatted a certain "chisai" person had a birthday of her own... I should be the one sorry who didn't know about it and don't know what I could give you as a gift....

Gifts come from the heart and so... the one thing I am good at XP is my imagination so hopefully my imagination is good enough to affect you and be a little gift... "chisai chan you are walking into a dimmly lit theatre and slowly walk towards the front and take a seat in the center front row. In front of you is a big red curtain.... "CUE MUSIC... Intro to It Had to Be you" and as the curtains are being raised a spotlight shines down on you and then on stage to reveal none other then Mr. Elliot Yamin as he starts to sing "It Had to Be You" to You ^_^...

I'll leave you two be... Happy Belated Birthday ^^

lol.. too funny.. *lightly thwaps gemini-kun on the cheek* sho ga nai!

merged: 04-28-2006 ~ 05:00pm
eetou... i'll make it short... shimasen for all the replies...(!)

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what is "thwap"...

thwap (thwap) v. N/A [Combination of English words "whack" and "slap"], demo, i would like to say it as an affectionate/silly slap.

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Quote by gemini4lifeOMG, Baka Bat where are you Looking for you all day, to say BLEACH MANGA is BEST THING IN THE WORLD ! I'm almost all caught up now!

Well, now I guess you understand why I kept telling you to READ the manga... <.< Now, you'll have to read Naruto...

And, yeah, I figured you were waiting for something when I saw you log on and off over and over again... but I didn't feel like talking to anyone at all... I've been that way all week-end, and the stupid neighbours made me even more aggressive... (bunch of idiots who probably never sleep *shows fists*) Actually, am still feeling like being a lone wolf for a while... so, you'll hardly see me in the next few weeks. Besides, I need to concentrate on work (I started my exams today, and that will last for 3 weeks )

anyways, take care and see ya!

PS: you really have to ask a mod to restore your guestbook... we don't even see your reply box anymore o_O... I think sending a PM to one of them, like EternalParadox and he would fix it... it's not a bug, it's probably just someone who didn't use the quote tags correctly : http://forum.minitokyo.net/thread/45763/problem-with-guestbook/1/?highlight=guestbook#p950634

gemini-kun! i would like to let you know that the original account has been restored!

..life is good.

ohayo, gemini-kun!

this is chisaikame.. my account got busted the last time mt crashed; inevitably i had to create a new one... i didn't let you know about it immediately, that i may save the trouble of you seeing past/reposted doujins... demo (but) only a few more and i can upload some new ones again... what i definitely miss from the old account are your kind and reflective thoughts... hontou ni!.. XP ..speaking of which, i believe chichan had been a little harsh on gemini-kun the last time (shojo doujin).. because of that please accept my heartfelt apologies......................... hontou ni gomen nasai......*bows politely for a full 30 secs*

now to your interesting critiques... (maido ari)

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I saw all your new pics, but didn't get around to commenting on them ... but don't worry, please don't think I feel obligated to respond to your pics, I really love them a lot, and analyzing them is like a fun trip for my imagination. So it's something I really enjoy doing... unfortunately last few weeks have been extremely hectic and stressful so only had time to view your pics and not comment on them.

ki ni shi nai!... (it's ok, don't mind it!)

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So this time just here for some casual conversation ^^. Your Elliot collection is growing I see, and he's doing well so far. When I'm lucky I can get home to the hotel early enough to watch idol, and seen him sing a few times... he's got a good chance

*blushes, doesn't know what to do....laughs in embarassment*... bakana chisai-kame.. elliot-otaku desu! XP

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hmm I remember a while back chisaikame chan asked me if there was anything I'd like you to draw for me, so actually I'm wondering if I should ask now. Why, cause it's a good time, I could take it as a BDay gift I've never asked for a gift before, but people keep saying you really shouldn't expect people to read your mind. So I'll try ask, but plz plz don't feel obligated cause it's late notice and honestly I don't know exactly what I want

wow... i have only the courage to read this note today!.. if i only knew! please it would be an honor... my pleasure to draw you a doujin! anything you like! onegaishimasu, gemini-kun! please respond asap!... forgive me for the delay! anything for gemini-kun...

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Well my imagination has always pictured an emblem for my name gemini4life, encompassed in a ying yang sign but just can't put it into words... baka gemini

ahah.. sou ka.. i've been wanting to ask what your name meant.... very interesting... the light could not exist without the dark... if my recollection serves me right with the yin yang philosophy.....

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Well you know my imagination and how it gets out of hand Honestly I should just stick to my philosophy if a gift comes from the heart then that's all that matters... cause when I see it I'm always remined that theres a good friend out there who cares about me ^^

chisaikame chan cares for gemini-kun in terms that words could not express.. please - let me know about it... it's gonna be extravagant! ...my aplogies again, gemini-kun ..i feel like kicking myself for having read this so late!....(mainly due to embarassment of the way i acted from last time) i will make it up to you!... forgive chisai!

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ps. so you want me to draw a yin yang? that's all- any anime picture that represents it, and that i would copy? ....

here.. we go again... how you remind me of simon cowell.... jk.

hai hai.. i know i'm very late, demo two things!

1) it was a really bad doujin... i didn't get the whole naru illustration.. the mistakes were basically because someone from MT suddenly became bashful that i've to report the posts in my gb.. ; the other was because i never 'zoomed' in on the drawing.. i barely have taken in... whatever naru element there was.. .... otoh, i do want to make it look bleak...sickly..

2) i was actually afraid gemini-san will be forced to comment when the effort was obviously very poor.... like i said... gemini-san is not obliged to comment...
anyway, after this post.. i'm uploading a few... just to somehow redeem myself.. i guess.. jk.. oh and if you're serious about making them wallies but the resolution doesn't fit, i can give you the 300 dpi version.. and you can reduce the size anytime you like..

ok.. on with the critique...
i dunno but sometimes i feel kinda scared reading your posts... especially on bad doujins like this.

Quote by gemini4life*drool*... mmmhhmm Mangos... oops, I'm here to review not think about lunch

hai.. oishi!

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hmm okay I'm looking for a picture that's not suppose to be fully colored and done by someone that is lazy... O.O *stares around* hmmm nope don't see anything like that... but there's this shojo picture here that I can review

*laughs heartily* ...

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*rubs his eyes* omg this picture isn't fully colored, but there was so much surrounding color that my imagination colored in the rest, yay it's the "chisai kame" style. And if lazy means you have this much dedication to put out so many works of art *raises hand* sign me up to the lazy club ^^

dedicated to make it look incomplete.... sometimes, i dunno if i just want to dissapoint people with having colored what happens to be the most important in the picture... comments like 'maybe you should've completed the colouring of the girls before you submitted it'.. makes my day.. maybe because that's how i sometimes view life... ...but technically, when i try to color it... it's really alot more work.. cos i'm a bit meticulous with how i want to color it.. pencil leads tend to get smudged when layered with color.. so i have to ink the whole drawing to avoid that... XO and when i ink... i favor different points of techpens... and since i like thin sharp lines, then i have to sharpen what i would use constantly.. -end of whining... lol.

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Two things in this picture I particulary like are the colors and the trees. This is the most color you've put in a pic so far, and I really love the way the "main" chars are the ones that aren't colored because it draws out the surroundings without taking away from the main chars, as a matter of fact it actually makes them more prominant. The second are the trees, I noticed you went with a different color, and it gave me a cherry blossom feel which I really like, can't go wrong with cherry blossoms ^^

domo arigatou... there were a lot of mistakes though.. i was trying different shades and there was plenty that i couldn't fix even if i try to layer it with white... to be honest, i don't have much control yet with nothing else besides mech pencil.. i shouldn't have outlined those cherry blossoms heavily... poor visualization... XO

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To constructive criticism I liked how you tried experimenting with trees and grass this time round. For the grass I think you did a great job but there is room to grow here, i like the wind effects, but don't quite have the feel for it... sorry not very good at describing what i mean... partially due to the fact that the original has the background of the grass off into the distant but doesn't connect to anything but a white space.

yeah, i know.. it was very amateuristic, ne..

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hai hai.. that was pretty poor.. nothing escapes your eye...

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And a comment on your GB entry for me... you made gemini-san blush... so many compliments... and of course when you *pinched* my cheeks -^ ^-

lol... anytime, gemini-san!.. *pinches cheeks again* .... XP

ki o tsukete!

Ok, first, read my answer to your thread first
And, you really should ask one of the mods clean your guestbook... I think it must be the same problem as usual, a defective post (mine or Celessa's most likely), and it needs to be deleted.
And, now the comment about your top 10... again, I have no idea what you want me to say about it... You asked me in a PM to do my own, but I won't. First of all, my year wasn't all that eventful, well, what I remember of it, but mostly, I don't like to dwell on the past. This is my belief, to look forward, not backward, it's the only way you can go ahead with your life. So, I'll just comment on each one of your points... And I apologize right away for the number of times the subject "I" will appear in there, but the only I can understand these points, is by relating my own experience to them.

Quote by youYearning - Gun range - I had to wait literally years to do this, because I had to wait for people to reach 21, but this year finally got to go to the gun range and fire some rounds. This was a simpler dream, but stemmed from all the ops books I read and how important one shot is. Being able to shoot a gun brought all my thoughts on guns to perspective, and I keep a bullet with me to remind me that something so small can both take a life or save it depending on how you use it, very similar to the life you are given.

Okay, that's a weird thing to yearn for o_O... Well, I'm a girl, guns don't exactly attract me Honestly, I don't like guns, and no, this is not because I'm a girl. But I won't rant about guns and the why I think they should have never been invented in the first place here . Still, if that's what you wanted to do, then cool, and hope you had a blast doing it... Nice little metaphor, I'd almost say poetic, if it weren't talking about bullets

Quote by youSatisfaction - Work Travel - As much as I rant about my job, it has some perks, and traveling can be one of them. This year I went to three new places: Madison, WI, Nashville TN, and Bama. All were unique in their own way and all provided me a challenge of adapting to a new area and taking in what they had to offer. Though some places my stay was short it still provided me with some wonderful experiences. Example Bama, put me in the most freak storm I've ever been where the sky turned dark almost instantly and I was pelted with golf ball size hail, but it made the adventure to see a buddy of mine all that more worthwhile.

Wow! an upside about your work. I was wondering if there was any, considering you rant a lot more about it than otherwise The "can be one of them" worries me a little though, I suppose there are also bad points to it, like being away from friends and family. Yet, I'm sure it provides learning experience on a daily basis, and getting to meet new people too I suppose.

Quote by youContentment - Promotion - My two years of hardwork really took a lot of the excitement out of finally getting this promotion. The reason was I had put my heart and soul into my work and knew I deserved this promotion.

Now, I don't know if I should say congratulations on your promotion (albeit, very late congrats), or I'm sorry that you lost all your excitement on your way there... I'll go for the very late congrats.

Quote by youDesire - New Car - Two cars in two year, I must be doing really well or really in debt . Though not my dream car, she's definitely a beauty, my new corolla S, like me isn't perfect in any way, lacks the power, but with her I finally can drive the way I want. Power is nothing without control, and with her I feel I have the control and confidence to put the skills I learned to use.

And this is where I say I am a bit jealous XP. A car would probably allow me to see my family more often, and also stop ranting about the city buses here ... I'm kidding, it's awesome that you got a car, even if it's not your dream one, the important is that it drives you where you want to go ^^

Quote by you (yes, again)Elation - Chicago Trip - Well this is truly the TOP work perk. Thanks to the points I had earned at work, I was able to drive my family and cousins/aunt/grandma to Chicago in a Lincoln Navigator, and when we got there we stayed at the Presidential Suite for July 4th weekend. The surprise and joy I saw on all their faces when they found out where they were staying was only matched by the joy I felt that I was able to bring this to them.

I do remember you talked a little about that trip to me... sounds like it was really cool. ^^ You're definitely selfless, it's great that you could give that to your family, and especially, be able to enjoy it along with them.

Quote by I'll let you guessFear - Family/Friends - Time waits for no man, how true this is as slowly but surely everyone around me is growing up and finding their way in life, and of course change and uncertainty are things we all fear. Accepting what the outcome of these changes is scary when you've looked at what the outcome will be. A continuing lesson and fear that I hope to get better at dealing with as the changes continue to arise.

I'm not sure I get why you put in "Family/Friends" besides "Fear"... Is it because your afraid for your family and friends because of the change and uncertainty. Oh well... You know, I think pretty much everyone worries about the future, about changes, uncertainties, and what the outcome will be. Some people are really good at adapting, while others aren't... it depends on your personality, but I think everyone worries about this. But imagin how life would be boring if we knew exactly what was going to happen tomorrow. No surprise, no challenge... It would be the same as having no hope. And I'm sure you'll get better at it, you just need to believe in yourself.

Quote by And once again: youResolve - Japan - Wow, Japan, I was here over two weeks and think I can write a book on this life changing experience. I did put some in a diary of mine, but this trip was a dream of mine. I knew going into it that it wasn't going to be easy, there would be countless challenges, but I knew it was my one shot at achieving this dream and I knew I couldn't miss it. With determination and spirit I had an adventure that words can't describe and I may be the only one who knew everything that happened there.

Again, am a bit jealous... XP But it's great you got to achieve your dream, you deserved it too. And it's also good that the promise of challenges didn't stop you from going for it And when is there something related to Japan that words can describe? Their language itself is one of the most ambiguous languages ever, because everything lies in what is not openly said ^^ In other words, your trip to Japan reflects exactly what Japan is

Quote by Wait, I'll say it... you!Acceptance - Love - Ahh what would a year be without this topic. This was a tough year for it, a great deal more pain then joy from it, but I learned and grew substantially this year. Two specific events, one where I was able to finally bring some resolution to I guess what you could call my first true love, and the other was one that taught me what it was like to be loved and surprisingly how difficult it was to love back. So the conclusion, despite learning and growing I don't know much about it, I don't even know if I'm ready to love, but because of these very truths I know I will not let any chances for love slip.
I thought too much about love in the past, and that may have been my downfall. You love with your heart, open your heart feel with your heart, let your heart be the judge of what you feel and what the other feels. Only when you find what the feelings of both people are can you begin to think about other things. The sad truth is even if both of you love one another the love itself may not be able to overcome the environment in which it exists, but even then the love doesn't change it's just that it can't grow anymore... this is my greatest lesson. A piece of my heart is placed with the ones I love and that piece will always be with them praying for them, hoping that one day soon they will find their other half, one where the love they share can overcome whatever life throws at them, one that can flourish and grow to it's limitless potential. As a result of this though there maybe little remaining heart left in me and because of this I maybe agreeing with a friend of mine who questions her ability to love, or of being able to let herself love.

This one is really, really long ... Somehow, I feel a reference to myself in there... oh wait! the last sentence, of course!
I guess love is painful in a way, both able to make you feel at your best, and make you feel like crap when it is not shared... Well, like yourself, this is a subject I'm not very well versed in. What I do know is that I can't exactly agree with your having little remaining heart left... There is no limit to a heart's extent, and I think it's a little sad to look at it that way... But it will happen to you someday for sure, and you will certainly let yourself love, you do say you won't let the chances for love slip. I'll tell you what my mother keeps telling me (about love, or objects you've lost ): "Stop looking for it, and it will find you."

Quote by Who do you think this time?Humility - Friendship/Hero/Role Model - This one blindsided me, and something I have to work on for the New Year. I live my life doing my best and caring for the ones dear to me. However, I do so equally and unconditionally. But this year I realized something and that there were those out there that thought very highly of me... those that would go as far as to call me a hero or even a role model... I've never thought of myself in these terms, but truly honored that they think this way about me, and because of this very fact I know I need to change just a little.
I realize treating everyone equally isn't fair, the equality should not be found in how I evenly I distribute it, it should be Equal to what I'm receiving if not more. I won't ever consider myself a hero or role model, but the very least I can do is do my best so I can be at least close to it.

My question is: why do you need to change, if people already think highly of you?
I know being a role model is scary, and it means that your every action can influence someone... This brings back not so good memories. That little girl that committed suicide, at her funerals, her father came up to me and told me she thought very highly of me... I think this is what made me the most sad about her death. I found out there I had been clueless about her. I knew she was in pain, I knew she was lonely. But I had no idea that the extent of her pain could bring her to contemplate suicide. And even worst, I was unable to prevent it, or even notice it.
Also, equality in what you give and receive is the ultimate ideal that any human being should reach However, I'm afraid it rarely happens in life... My mother, for example, is just like you, she gives a lot more than she receives. And I know she wants to have people return her the favors, but... very few people understand that about her. They see her generosity, they take advantage of it, and seldom give back, and, unfortunately, I am no better then everyone else, for now. I hope I'll be able to change that someday.

Quote by Finally! Humanity - Well number one is basically a summation of all the above, as you may have noticed my top 10 this year was made up of feelings one can go through. Memories are not just made up of the things you did, but of the feelings that were elicited from doing those things. I understand a little more now, I'm human I'm like everyone else I have emotions and feeling and shouldn't be afraid to feel them. To love, hate, fear, be angry, be jealous and be joyful. I look forward to what adventures this New Year will present me, and more importantly experiencing them with the people I care about.

Well, this sums it up. A little late, but good luck on this new, not so new Year...

---------------------------------------(...) now that that part is done... I'll get on to the hard part, but I think a few explanations are in order and I really need to say this. And this is the really selfish part of my post. I will have to admit I grew a bit annoyed at you over the past 2 weeks. Not mad, just annoyed. Not because you asked me to comment on your thread and list, but because of how you asked me to do it. Your "guiltying" me into doing this made me feel really bad. This is the method of manipulation my mother constantly uses on me, albeit unconsciously, and I always despise it as much. You don't need to make me feel bad to make me do something, just ask for it... I might say no, but at least, there is respect. I know you were going through a rough emotional time, but still...

By doing this, and I'm sure you didn't mean it, but still, you made it feel like it was a homework for me to do this, so much that it was actually written on my "to do" this along with the translation for the Bureau, and my text revision. I'm sure this is not how you wanted it to be, and this is not how I wanted to do this. And your insisting only made me more annoyed, especially after I had specifically promised to do it.

And if you're expecting Iyasis to do what I just did today, she most likely won't. Yes, we are busy, but it doesn't explain everything. First, she doesn't come on MT anymore, the last time she did, she commented on my pics, but told me she didn't like how it was here now. Second, and this is where Mordin is right in calling us twins, we are not emotional people. This much I mentioned in your thread already. My point is, if you're looking for talking about emotions, I'm am not the right person. Sure, I do have feelings, like everyone else, but, except for happiness, and sometimes anger, I consider my emotions private. I do not like talking about them. And I especially don't want people to force me to talk about them. This is a boundary I like to see respected. As you saw, when you pushed me, you only made me more mad, and I don't like getting angry either.

Now, to answer your e-mail, I understand that you want feedback from people, or that you want people to give back in some way what you give them. Anyone as selfless as yourself has the right to wish for that much. Actually, most of the times my mother (who is as selfless as you are) cries, it's for that very reason. However, if people don't, you should remember that it is not because they don't care about you, or don't think about you. Did you think that maybe, it's just that they don't know how to pay you back? Just a little something to think about. Then again, I think true love is about giving without expecting anything in return.

Quote by Youeveryone reacts differently to different things...

You wrote that, and you know it's true. You also know you can't expect people to react the same way you want them to too... Don't hurt yourself, or think any less of yourself because of that... And especially, don't stop loving and caring about people on account of that, it would just be sad.

I think this is pretty much all I had to say, it took me the entire evening. So, sorry for the novel. And hope you won't be too mad at me for writing this. Take care.

Ayamael

ohayo gozaimasu!

i hope you have slept and rested well! <3

Quote by gemini4lifehehe, excuse the ranting but there is a connection with the @.@. I'm taking my MT break and POW BAM KABLOIE AIYEE DINK... i was hit by 5 of your works of art and so my eyes went like that because of the work and the overload of all the great work (which pics made which sounds is up to your imagination XP.)

lol.. gemini san is funny all the time..

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Gomene but i won't have the time to comment on them all specifically so I'll be making some comments overall here in your GB. First off I'm happy to see that you are continuing to experiment with colors, and it's adding another element to defining the drawings as you. So what do I think of Chisaikame chan when I see these pics... well your doujinshi that are just done with pencil are done so well and the shading puts so much definition that it brings life to your drawings.

kawaiso... gemini san is not obliged to comment on chisai's doujins.. i mean - i just put it there... otoh, i do appreciate and admit that i enjoy reading your commentaries.... that i read them more than twice..

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However, with the addition of colors to your drawings now, I can look at you and your drawings with another perspective. Your pictures now not only have life, but they hint there is so much more to life. You tease us with a splash of color here and there,

...guilty as charged.. XP

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and each splash brings out another new emotion most of the time it's very pleasant and bring hope, and other times you contrast it like your eva drawing where the color you chose was red and showed anger and pain.

lol... too funny.. when will you ever stop reading me.. jk!

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With this splash of color I begin to imagine the rest of the picture in color I dream up of what other wonders are there, it makes me interact and feel the picture... it's a wonderful journey that each picture brings and sometimes can feel that it's a trip with chisaikame chan ^^ So what do I think of you with your drawings... my answer is see your MT icon

i'll help you here... i guess i'm the emotional and yet silly kame. *too embarassed now..*

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It was tough but thought you would like to know... I did have a fave out of the five recent submissions and it was caelestis. I too am not a huge fan of echi, but when I look at your work it's about the details and the emotions of the drawing that you try to bring out. And this one I focused on her clothing, which you've captured brilliantly and the beauty and unison of the girl and the dress to the point really that I see only beauty and not even think of echi... i only realized it was this when you said it was and saw the original scan

yeah.. anime characters emotion are just fun.. about the left out details i was apprehensive at that cos it may look rather base for a subject that looks so angelic... so i want to preserve the purity/feel for the doujin. again... you really have an artist's eye.. yeah.. 'unison'.. the more i draw/copy.. the more i learn or find my own style.. i figured the subject should always look like one solid entity.. i'm truly impressed by your keen observations..

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Ooops my break went over.... but this was fun and wanted to stop by and say hi and thanks for all the wonderful pieces of art

Byeii *waves*

edit: though my fave was caelestis wasn't too sure if I should go with that as my wallie on my laptop (work pc) so I trying putting on ixtus and it works really great... she's a little tubby, but actually she's just as cute if not more so ^_^

lol.. well.. personally tubby girls remind me of youthfulness.. that's how the she appealed to me/made her project like one.. (although i myself am skinny.. ).. that's so awesome if you'd put her as your wallie.. *pinches gemini-san's cheeks! kawaii! thank you very much gemini-kun - for everything!

Gambare!