gemini4life
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I've thought that it might be nice if I could forget it all somewhere in my heart but... Because the future comes because the past exists, You look forward to tomorrow because there are memories. If it's been empty until yesterday, The future is just the passing of time No mater how painful or heavy it is, You must carry your past on your own.
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Hello! gemini san! how's you?! where you? douko ni gemini san! have you seen him..
merged: 11-25-2006 ~ 08:38am
otoh, i'm a bit lost for words at the moment, due to some tyrant profs causing
much of our unhappy times. otoh, i will write a much worthier post by next
week..
oh, and i would love to have your IM username if it's ok..
ohayo! i'm so happy to hear from you again, gemini kun! *jumps up and down*.. lol. saaaa.. been a long time ne-
saa- *shakes head while smiling*.. so till then, ne gemini kun! <3 ki o tsukete kudasai!
merged: 11-29-2006 ~ 07:24pm
GEMINI KUN GEMINI KUN GEMINI KUN!
hai!
dang - like that poem by Poe :
"Thank Heaven! the crisis-
The danger is past,
And the lingering illness
Is over at last-"
honto ni! we have just passed our thesis and i'm elated beyond words! (yes no more biggie, and eligible for graduation)
however- that was a real jerk of me, not to correspond from time to time though..
ckchan is inadequate with stress..
...gomenasai- gemini kun!
ctrl z crtl z ctrl z.. gemini kun!
..*grins* yeah that song is purrrdy. <333 ..i like it when the vocalist try
to sing the song, you know?
so many, ne?... i wonder what they are... ^____^ however, i could definitely relate to the lyrics as well.. wai!
oh my- just the same here.. got through some really tough time both personal and academic, but thankfully-.. surviving, and quite in a happy disposition. I'm likely to draw again back here in MT as well. Though i'm not sure, if you will frequent the site as before..
..other than that, i met a few newly computer grads/game developers overseas,
and i draw game characters for em. if business will do good in the future, i
might move there. ^^ i guess you have gotten a new job?
i
hope i could cheer you tho... <33333
oo.. i have added you but, i'm shy to msg..- *giggles*.. must sum up some courage, i guess.. lol.
but yeah- see ya in chat.. David? is it?
hi gemini4life
i want to say thanks for faving my wall Exquisite Reverie
im glad that you like my wall so thank you, i really appreciate it
i hope that you have an enjoyable day and take care ^^
Hey there Straw Hat,
How are you? Sorry, actually, I'm already back home. I came back last Tuesday, with all the disadvantages it brings. And before that, I was running everywhere in preparation for the trip to come back. Now, I'm back on my slow connection
,
and back to hiding to log on. The worst being, I know my mother has a modem for
high speed hidden somewhere here (I ordered it for her, coz' she'll need one for
her job, and so will I if I can't find a job soon) but I can't even install it,
she won't allow me
. We're supposed to go buy her a new computer next week, and I have to show
her how it works so, maybe... *crosses fingers*.
I had to come back early for an appointment with the dentist and a surgeon... stupid wisdom teeth... I just had 3 removed last Friday (yes, 3, luckily for me, the fourth one was missing lol). It's a small surgery, I know, but it's the first time in my life I go to the hospital, so it made me really nervous, though, my mother was even more nervous/scared than I was lol. It's also the first time I have to take this many pills at once. And I just got myself a new nickname because of my puffy (swollen) cheeks too, thanks to my mom's great sense of observation: Squirrel... or from Iyasis: Scrat (she watched Ice Age way too many times
). Worst part, I won't be able to eat popcorn or chips for two whole
weeks
This is going to be hard loll. Still, I'm doing okay, and it
doesn't hurt nearly as much as I had feared...
So, for now, I'm taking a break. I didn't even start looking for work. I'm just sleeping, reading (I finally got to start reading The Da Vinci Code, it was about time
), watching TV, and maybe I'll find time to draw a little bit. Mom wants me to
rest, and she's doing everything in her power to allow me to relax, even though
she's tired herself. And she won't let me help her...
Anyways, I hope you're doing good yourself. You should give me news about what's up with you too, though I'll be slow at answering from now on. I'm not sure I'll be able to show up on MSN before a while either... Take good care of yourself, see ya!
Ayamael
P.S. what is this? *looks at post under hers* You're spamming your own GB now?
...
Not good LMAO... take care Straw Hat!
merged: 07-14-2006 ~ 01:20pm
*poke* *poke* I'm talking to you on MSN right now, I know... and I'll probably tell you I posted in your gb... stupid merge post
Break XP
hi hi, gemini-kun...
i'm afraid this is going to be emotional because this is very late... *chokes*
eetou.. hai hai..
eetou.. this is the most difficult part...
i
actually made a sketched
one a long time ago, but decided to not upload it, and color it instead
because it has to be special, but... *silent in utter defeat*... they were
giving us so much work... there wasn't adequate time to finish... until now.....
(sigh, sob)
see... this is the most difficult part about reading your posts, i'm just utterly embarassed to reread them, especially when i knew i did something terrible.... eetou... gemini-san, i got to read this part again about the 'lighter side' just today!
chisaikame, bakana itsumo...
honto ni gomenasai... i'm out of words... but i would like to return feedbacks on the other two, doujins.. because i'm happy when you seem to like the doujins.... (so very late) happy birthday... next time i will read your notes properly for a change....
merged: 04-23-2006 ~ 06:34pm
hi hi gemini-san!
saaa... Sho ga nai..
hai hai..
i love this particular sequence.. it just blows me away..
sou desu!
i think it will add more drama to the picture, ne.. but
chisai is too afraid to be even slightly creative.. i've not much confidence
really with original works, shimasen...
i do hope this will be overcome though.
dou itashimashite!
i do agree with you there... i paid particular attention to her expression..
for me, that's what i learned from observing classic paintings.. there is just
so much 'story' on a person's expression let alone a whole portrait..! i'm glad
we have the same way of seeing the picture.. it was made to give a sense of wonderment and fantasy.
subrasahii, gemini-kun!
okashii... <3333 gemini-kun!
i don't know.. but i get affected with the littlest things..
if i
notice that a certain physique can be different from others i like to observe
how they are deemed different..
in
this case, i am again.. making a big deal of how a person can look in her
youthful years, to the point that i would like to make her look fragile/pure....
saaaaaa.. there i go babbling again.
thank you very much... there was research on stock people sitting though.. i possibly could not have done it from thought...
i was actually thinking of a wreathe of 'roses' so tightly pulled together and as though falling off near her bangs... but symmetry and harmony is also key in a drawing so to complement her wings, i ended up with a different design.. besides it being easier for me to draw..
i couldn't really have ample time to think about what to put on her wings, but i
tried to imitate nature to the best of my ability... you know- ....there is so
much harmony and order in nature. :] about the 'wreathe' effect, i'm not sure
about ballerina's sporting it either, demo, gemini-kun.. as we all know, in
anime there should be a distinct kawaii-factor.. it was added to make the
average viewer and go 'aww shucks'.. and this is my first attempt to it..
i'm very glad you liked it somehow..
hai hai.. domo arigatou.. itsumo!
it is the shadow from her dangling hand...
sho ga nai...
hai hai... i do think it was pretty 'weak' shadow.. not much 'layers' were made (chisai's method is always that of layers, sketch/layer/sketch, then lineart) in which i am usually resorting to..
eetou.. it means 'celebrity'... you know it's like this: people like, stare at her, inquiring why she looks/attired in a different way... answer is because she's the prima ballerina.. something like that...! lol. but the deeper meaning is again that sense of fantasy and that longing for a perfect place.. etc.
saaa.. that's dvorak symphony no. 9 'new world' third movement i think... i thoroughly enjoyed listening to it so i wrote the title down and not forget....
-to your gb entry now...
merged: 04-23-2006 ~ 06:51pm
saaa... that made me smile so much my cheeks hurt...
gemini-san has a wonderful way with words, hontou ni! ^_^ demo ne, to know that
you're happy.. is much much more than better than a thank you- sou desu!
it is official: no one can embarass chichan more than gemini-kun..~!
i guess i really just have to get used to it.. otoh, it's simply impossible to
wipe the grin off my face...
dou
itashimashite.. gomenasai for the rough edges, though.. it was a last minute
decision that i would give a black bg... and chisai loves a hint of imperfection
in her works so....
lol.. too funny.. *lightly thwaps gemini-kun on the cheek* sho ga nai!
merged: 04-28-2006 ~ 05:00pm
eetou... i'll make it short... shimasen for all the replies...(!)
thwap (thwap) v. N/A [Combination of English words "whack" and "slap"], demo, i would like to say it as an affectionate/silly slap.
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Well, now I guess you understand why I kept telling you to READ the manga... <.< Now, you'll have to read Naruto...
And, yeah, I figured you were waiting for something when I saw you log on and off over and over again... but I didn't feel like talking to anyone at all... I've been that way all week-end, and the stupid neighbours made me even more aggressive... (bunch of idiots who probably never sleep *shows fists*) Actually, am still feeling like being a lone wolf for a while... so, you'll hardly see me in the next few weeks. Besides, I need to concentrate on work (I started my exams today, and that will last for 3 weeks
)
anyways, take care and see ya!
PS: you really have to ask a mod to restore your guestbook... we don't even see your reply box anymore o_O... I think sending a PM to one of them, like EternalParadox and he would fix it... it's not a bug, it's probably just someone who didn't use the quote tags correctly : http://forum.minitokyo.net/thread/45763/problem-with-guestbook/1/?highlight=guestbook#p950634
gemini-kun! i would like to let you know that the original account has been restored!
..life is good.
ohayo, gemini-kun!
this is chisaikame.. my account got busted the last time mt crashed; inevitably i had to create a new one... i didn't let you know about it immediately, that i may save the trouble of you seeing past/reposted doujins... demo (but) only a few more and i can upload some new ones again...
what
i definitely miss from the old account are your kind and reflective thoughts...
hontou ni!.. XP ..speaking of which, i believe chichan had been a little harsh
on gemini-kun the last time (shojo doujin).. because of that please accept my
heartfelt apologies......................... hontou ni gomen nasai......*bows
politely for a full 30 secs*
now to your interesting critiques... (maido ari)
ki ni shi nai!... (it's ok, don't mind it!)
*blushes, doesn't know what to do....laughs in embarassment*... bakana chisai-kame.. elliot-otaku desu! XP
wow... i have only the courage to read this note today!.. if i only knew! please it would be an honor... my pleasure to draw you a doujin! anything you like! onegaishimasu, gemini-kun! please respond asap!... forgive me for the delay!
anything for gemini-kun...
ahah.. sou ka.. i've been wanting to ask what your name meant.... very interesting... the light could not exist without the dark... if my recollection serves me right with the yin yang philosophy.....
chisaikame chan cares for gemini-kun in terms that words could not express.. please - let me know about it... it's gonna be extravagant! ...my aplogies again, gemini-kun ..i feel like kicking myself for having read this so late!....(mainly due to embarassment of the way i acted from last time) i will make it up to you!... forgive chisai!
merged: 03-30-2006 ~ 05:19pm
ps. so you want me to draw a yin yang? that's all- any anime picture that represents it, and that i would copy?
here.. we go again...
how
you remind me of simon cowell....
jk.
hai hai.. i know i'm very late, demo two things!
1) it was a really bad doujin... i didn't get the whole naru illustration..
the mistakes were basically because someone from MT suddenly became bashful that
i've to report the posts in my gb..
; the
other was because i never 'zoomed' in on the drawing..
i barely have taken in... whatever naru element there was..
....
otoh, i do want to make it look bleak...sickly..
2) i was actually afraid gemini-san will be forced to comment when the effort was obviously very poor.... like i said... gemini-san is not obliged to comment...
anyway, after this post.. i'm uploading a few... just to somehow redeem myself.. i guess.. jk.. oh and if you're serious about making them wallies but the resolution doesn't fit, i can give you the 300 dpi version.. and you can reduce the size anytime you like..
ok.. on with the critique...
i dunno but sometimes i feel kinda scared reading your posts... especially on bad doujins like this.
hai.. oishi!
*laughs heartily* ...
dedicated to make it look incomplete....
sometimes, i dunno if i just want to dissapoint people with having colored what
happens to be the most important in the picture... comments like 'maybe you
should've completed the colouring of the girls before you submitted it'.. makes
my day..
maybe because that's how i sometimes view life...
...but
technically, when i try to color it... it's really alot more work.. cos i'm a
bit meticulous with how i want to color it.. pencil leads tend to get smudged
when layered with color..
so i
have to ink the whole drawing to avoid that... XO and when i ink... i favor
different points of techpens... and since i like thin sharp lines, then i have
to sharpen what i would use constantly..
-end of whining... lol.
domo arigatou... there were a lot of mistakes though..
i was trying different shades and there was plenty that i couldn't fix even
if i try to layer it with white... to be honest, i don't have much control yet
with nothing else besides mech pencil..
i shouldn't have outlined those cherry blossoms heavily... poor
visualization... XO
yeah, i know.. it was very amateuristic, ne..
hai hai..
that was pretty poor.. nothing escapes your eye...
lol... anytime, gemini-san!.. *pinches cheeks again* .... XP
ki o tsukete!
Ok, first, read my answer to your thread first
And, you really should ask one of the mods clean your guestbook... I think it must be the same problem as usual, a defective post (mine or Celessa's most likely), and it needs to be deleted.
And, now the comment about your top 10... again, I have no idea what you want me to say about it... You asked me in a PM to do my own, but I won't. First of all, my year wasn't all that eventful, well, what I remember of it, but mostly, I don't like to dwell on the past. This is my belief, to look forward, not backward, it's the only way you can go ahead with your life. So, I'll just comment on each one of your points... And I apologize right away for the number of times the subject "I" will appear in there, but the only I can understand these points, is by relating my own experience to them.
Okay, that's a weird thing to yearn for o_O... Well, I'm a girl, guns don't exactly attract me
Wow! an upside about your work. I was wondering if there was any, considering you rant a lot more about it than otherwise
Now, I don't know if I should say congratulations on your promotion (albeit, very late congrats), or I'm sorry that you lost all your excitement on your way there... I'll go for the very late congrats.
And this is where I say I am a bit jealous XP. A car would probably allow me to see my family more often, and also stop ranting about the city buses here
I do remember you talked a little about that trip to me... sounds like it was really cool. ^^ You're definitely selfless, it's great that you could give that to your family, and especially, be able to enjoy it along with them.
I'm not sure I get why you put in "Family/Friends" besides "Fear"... Is it because your afraid for your family and friends because of the change and uncertainty. Oh well... You know, I think pretty much everyone worries about the future, about changes, uncertainties, and what the outcome will be. Some people are really good at adapting, while others aren't... it depends on your personality, but I think everyone worries about this. But imagin how life would be boring if we knew exactly what was going to happen tomorrow. No surprise, no challenge... It would be the same as having no hope. And I'm sure you'll get better at it, you just need to believe in yourself.
Again, am a bit jealous... XP But it's great you got to achieve your dream, you deserved it too. And it's also good that the promise of challenges didn't stop you from going for it
This one is really, really long
I guess love is painful in a way, both able to make you feel at your best, and make you feel like crap when it is not shared... Well, like yourself, this is a subject I'm not very well versed in. What I do know is that I can't exactly agree with your having little remaining heart left... There is no limit to a heart's extent, and I think it's a little sad to look at it that way... But it will happen to you someday for sure, and you will certainly let yourself love, you do say you won't let the chances for love slip. I'll tell you what my mother keeps telling me (about love, or objects you've lost
My question is: why do you need to change, if people already think highly of you?
I know being a role model is scary, and it means that your every action can influence someone... This brings back not so good memories. That little girl that committed suicide, at her funerals, her father came up to me and told me she thought very highly of me... I think this is what made me the most sad about her death. I found out there I had been clueless about her. I knew she was in pain, I knew she was lonely. But I had no idea that the extent of her pain could bring her to contemplate suicide. And even worst, I was unable to prevent it, or even notice it.
Also, equality in what you give and receive is the ultimate ideal that any human being should reach However, I'm afraid it rarely happens in life... My mother, for example, is just like you, she gives a lot more than she receives. And I know she wants to have people return her the favors, but... very few people understand that about her. They see her generosity, they take advantage of it, and seldom give back, and, unfortunately, I am no better then everyone else, for now. I hope I'll be able to change that someday.
Well, this sums it up. A little late, but good luck on this new, not so new Year...
---------------------------------------(...) now that that part is done... I'll get on to the hard part, but I think a few explanations are in order and I really need to say this. And this is the really selfish part of my post. I will have to admit I grew a bit annoyed at you over the past 2 weeks. Not mad, just annoyed. Not because you asked me to comment on your thread and list, but because of how you asked me to do it. Your "guiltying" me into doing this made me feel really bad. This is the method of manipulation my mother constantly uses on me, albeit unconsciously, and I always despise it as much. You don't need to make me feel bad to make me do something, just ask for it... I might say no, but at least, there is respect. I know you were going through a rough emotional time, but still...
By doing this, and I'm sure you didn't mean it, but still, you made it feel like it was a homework for me to do this, so much that it was actually written on my "to do" this along with the translation for the Bureau, and my text revision. I'm sure this is not how you wanted it to be, and this is not how I wanted to do this. And your insisting only made me more annoyed, especially after I had specifically promised to do it.
And if you're expecting Iyasis to do what I just did today, she most likely won't. Yes, we are busy, but it doesn't explain everything. First, she doesn't come on MT anymore, the last time she did, she commented on my pics, but told me she didn't like how it was here now. Second, and this is where Mordin is right in calling us twins, we are not emotional people. This much I mentioned in your thread already. My point is, if you're looking for talking about emotions, I'm am not the right person. Sure, I do have feelings, like everyone else, but, except for happiness, and sometimes anger, I consider my emotions private. I do not like talking about them. And I especially don't want people to force me to talk about them. This is a boundary I like to see respected. As you saw, when you pushed me, you only made me more mad, and I don't like getting angry either.
Now, to answer your e-mail, I understand that you want feedback from people, or that you want people to give back in some way what you give them. Anyone as selfless as yourself has the right to wish for that much. Actually, most of the times my mother (who is as selfless as you are) cries, it's for that very reason. However, if people don't, you should remember that it is not because they don't care about you, or don't think about you. Did you think that maybe, it's just that they don't know how to pay you back? Just a little something to think about. Then again, I think true love is about giving without expecting anything in return.
You wrote that, and you know it's true. You also know you can't expect people to react the same way you want them to too... Don't hurt yourself, or think any less of yourself because of that... And especially, don't stop loving and caring about people on account of that, it would just be sad.
I think this is pretty much all I had to say, it took me the entire evening. So, sorry for the novel. And hope you won't be too mad at me for writing this. Take care.
Ayamael
ohayo gozaimasu!
i hope you have slept and rested well! <3
lol.. gemini san is funny all the time..
kawaiso...
gemini san is not obliged to comment on chisai's doujins..
i mean - i just put it there...
otoh, i do appreciate and admit that i enjoy reading your commentaries....
that i read them more than twice..
...guilty as charged..
XP
lol... too funny.. when will you ever stop reading me..
jk!
i'll help you here...
i
guess i'm the emotional and yet silly kame.
*too embarassed now..*
yeah.. anime characters emotion are just fun..
about the left out details i was apprehensive at that cos it may look rather
base for a subject that looks so angelic... so i want to preserve the
purity/feel for the doujin.
again... you really have an artist's eye.. yeah.. 'unison'..
the
more i draw/copy.. the more i learn or find my own style.. i figured the subject
should always look like one solid entity..
i'm
truly impressed by your keen observations..
lol.. well.. personally tubby girls remind me of youthfulness.. that's how the she appealed to me/made her project like one.. (although i myself am skinny..
).. that's so awesome if you'd put her as your wallie.. *pinches gemini-san's
cheeks! kawaii!
thank you very much gemini-kun - for everything!
Gambare!